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Post by slappy on Mar 3, 2014 8:17:14 GMT
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Post by Deleted on Mar 3, 2014 8:22:41 GMT
I really enjoyed that. It was raw, so it felt like slam poetry. I can say I've felt a lot of that, myself.
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Post by slappy on Mar 3, 2014 8:33:47 GMT
I really enjoyed that. It was raw, so it felt like slam poetry. I can say I've felt a lot of that, myself. Thanks. I really hate going through this. Obviously the paranoia and delusions are terrible but what I really really hate is when I do something that seems perfectly fine and good when I'm manic but then realize I shouldn't have done when I've come back down. Then I always end up doing it again, without fail, when manic and then I hate myself for doing it after I had already told myself not to.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 3, 2014 8:37:57 GMT
I really enjoyed that. It was raw, so it felt like slam poetry. I can say I've felt a lot of that, myself. Thanks. I really hate going through this. Obviously the paranoia and delusions are terrible but what I really really hate is when I do something that seems perfectly fine and good when I'm manic but then realize I shouldn't have done when I've come back down. Then I always end up doing it again, without fail, when manic and then I hate myself for doing it after I had already told myself not to. It's not entirely the same for me, since I'm not bipolar, but I definitely do have a lot of impulsiveness in me. I also tend to not be able to get over things that upset me, specifically things I've done myself. Honestly, I still feel stupid from things that happened 15 years ago, and I'm not even close to being the person I was back then.
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Post by Logo (The Horrorshow Freak) on Mar 3, 2014 13:17:56 GMT
I know the feeling as well. Ben says I have most of his (I forgot the word so for now I'll say "illness"), and I'm going to get it checked this weekend, and I feel the exact same way as you Slappy. The impulses, the decisions, the everything.
Great write man. Look forward to see more
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